mariam_ra

mariam_ra @ 2008-02-08T20:41:00

2008-02-08T19:41:11Z

I wish I also had a list...could put pluses and minuses..is bread made of corn? and there I was without a list...I like to eat..especially of I dont have to do the dishes. Do butterflies really have a day of life? What would I do in that day? If i was arab I would go to Mecca..

mariam_ra @ 2008-02-04T21:49:00

2008-02-04T22:29:14Z

for you..there're be no crime..Natia's ex boyfriend died due to overdose of drugs. Left a wife 4 months pregnant. She said she'd always known. Who to blame? People die like that! like tomatoes, like pigs, like insects. what are we , alive worried about.. more empathy people! emplathy to whom? I was empathetical to that English woman who poisoned her drunkard husband. Where did I leave my selnse of loyalty? in Caucasian mountains...those know vendetta. There, were I learned to hate law and respect Adat. Reconciliation..how much transitional justice talks about this ! all in vain?...who are perpetrators and who are victims? give me a definition! RA taught me to look for definitions at all times...Law taught me there are perpetrators and there are victims. Public prosecutors prosecute and judges judge! Poor creatures! How many years will they give to that English woman? Reparation programs in Sierra Leone...how much do they give to mothers whose children are murdered? Lets be optimistic people haha. Amnesty? lets not escalate conflicts..? Dont victims have right to redress? Ashes to ashes..dust to dust. What about truth-to-amnesty process? will we walk in fields of gold?:)
Lukacho is calling me on skype...my part he is ...less disturbed or less talkative:)and will the sunbirds keep singing?:) he sais I am his best student of Czech:)ja jsem moc krasna slecna:)? oi oi oi :)

mariam_ra @ 2008-02-04T13:39:00

2008-02-04T12:41:13Z

oi today is a good day although i had to get up at 8...and chatted with L till the very night:) sun is good ..spring comes soon?:) but its cold still....now I am chattign with NIni . I love chatting with her! come soon lukacho! I miss you !

mariam_ra @ 2008-02-03T19:23:00

2008-02-03T18:48:00Z

What is it that kept me here for more than 2 years? I saw oranges ..very well cut..in a good manner like people do .also I saw I saw some other stuff as well.. i dont remember and a grief face? was it? no I saw something else..I dont remember..only the feeling I do..what is a dream? wake up? shall I ? Amenabar...he he was right. innate repentance. what the fuck? when i was young I used to read the palms:) intuition. Very seldom it betrayed me..and me? i like the smell of Luka and hot asphalt.

mariam_ra @ 2007-08-29T19:44:00

2007-08-29T17:46:27Z

i walk and walk and walk i want to fall on earth for long and long and long ..the sun to burn my body and turn it into ashes

mariam_ra @ 2007-08-28T21:01:00

2007-08-28T19:11:48Z

for three hours ive been drawing suns and starts...i hear each leaf and each footstep..do i have fever? i miss you luka...when u come ill hug you and wont know what to say...

mariam_ra @ 2007-07-19T23:03:00

2007-07-19T21:05:46Z

:) luka wrote me on that:)he said: "we should talk about nihilism only when you are happy again, M after so much non-stop worrying u have to feel brunt and nihilist but i know your haour still Cort black, not grey"

mariam_ra @ 2007-07-19T22:35:00

2007-07-19T20:40:03Z

it doesnt make sense whether u're happy or unhappy..unless u care about happiness..you know what?just screw it...i dont care..fuck all- both good and bad...doesnt matter...we just are...

mariam_ra @ 2007-05-15T16:59:00

2007-05-15T15:01:36Z

:))) its been a while i havent written (And havent checked ) this journal:) aiaiaia...jenna ...mpua:)

Idont want any more..
the sun to come close to the earth and burn eveyone!

i want see through dress and sandals..

mariam_ra @ 2006-05-27T18:40:00

2006-05-28T14:34:57Z

I wanted to take a shower..but my brother is taking one..so i have to wait..but I have to meet my friends in half an hour..I aill be late of course..as usual..and I am in Gerogia now so it's all right..it is funny to keep journals..so many things changed..how shicldish I was a year ago..and how childish I probably am to what I will be a year ago.. adn I tried to sing but I couldn't think of anything..it was teh hardest part...I wonder what it's all about...I think good mood is melancholic cause you always are afraid not to loose it...so, I am melancholic now cause I feel so good! and this is the hardest part...:)

mariam_ra @ 2006-02-17T13:56:00

2006-02-17T12:57:49Z

so many things have changes since I haven't updated this journal...so many things...
whatever...this is..
ha ha ha irony of the destiny

true..
whatever...
I still love you guyes!

:)

2005-10-22T22:25:33Z

gaumarjos jigrebo! menatrebit ! me tqveni! rato shemakvaret tavi???exa xo viqnebodi arxeinad???

mariam_ra @ 2005-10-22T14:10:00

2005-10-21T12:11:05Z

i have been productive yesterday..that makes me happy!!! but it's already 14;10 and I still havent's done anything..that's bad..I have to go now...read Stats!mpuaaaaaaaa

mariam_ra @ 2005-10-21T00:09:00

2005-10-19T22:10:42Z

"Life can't give me joy and peace; it's up to me to will it. Life just gives me time and space; it's up to me to fill it."
WIlliam James

mariam_ra @ 2005-10-20T21:46:00

2005-10-19T19:46:53Z

i don't want anything..I even don't wanna dance..that is strange..cause...you know..i love it! life is getting dark..and the sun is not shining bright..live is growing ugly and evil..with big black hands...it wants to have me..cause it is hungry..it's hungry even it eats millions like me everyday..it is hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love???mmm

2005-10-19T11:31:48Z

Slow down for three minutes to read this. It is so worth it. Touching words from the mouth of babes.
What does Love mean? A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, "What does love mean?" The answers they got were broader and deeper than anyone could have imagined.

See what you think:

"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her
toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got
arthritis too. That's love."
Rebecca- age 8

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
Billy - age 4>=20

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and
they go out and smell each other."
Karl - age 5

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries
without making them give you any of theirs."
Chrissy - age 6

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4

"Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before
giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK."
Danny - age 7

"Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing,
you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like
that. They look gross when they kiss"
Emily - age 8

"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening
presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who
you hate,"
Nikka - age 6
(we need a few million more Nikka's on this planet)

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it
everyday."
Noelle - age 7

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends
even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6

"During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at
all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore."
Cindy - age 8

"My mommy loves me more than anybody .
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night."
Clare - age 6

"Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken."
Elaine-age 5

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is
handsomer than Robert Redford."
Chris - age 7

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

"I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes
and has to go out and buy new ones."
Lauren - age 4

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars
come out of you." (what an image)
Karen - age 7

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross."
Mark - age 6=20

"You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean
it, you should say it a lot. People forget."
Jessica - age 8

mariam_ra @ 2005-10-17T00:49:00

2005-10-15T22:49:26Z

ma jeunesse fout le camp tout au long des poèmes
et d'une rime à l'autre elle va bras balants
ma jeunesse fout le camp a la morte fontaine
et les coupeurs d'osier moissonent mes vingt ans

nous n'irons plus au bois, la chanson du poète
le refrain de deux sous, les vers de mirliton
qu'on chantait en rêvant au garçon de la fête
j'en oublie jusqu'au nom, j'en oublie jusqu'au nom

nous n'irons plus au bois, chercher la violette
la pluie tombe aujourd'hui qui efface nos pas
les enfants ont pourtant des chansons plein la tête
mais je ne les sais pas, mais je ne les sais pas

ma jeunesse fout le camp sur un air de guitare
elle sort de moi-même en silence à pas lent
ma jeunesse fout le camp elle a rompu l'amarre
elle a dans ses cheveux les fleurs de mes vingt ans

nous n'irons plus au bois, voici venir l'automne
j'attendrai le printemps en effeuillant l'ennui
il ne reviendra plus et si mon coeur frissonne
c'est que descend la nuit, c'est que descend la nuit

nous n'irons plus au bois, nous n'irons plus ensemble
ma jeunesse fout le camp au rythme de tes pas
si tu savais pourtant comme elle te ressemble
mais tu ne le sait pas, mais tu ne le sait pas

mariam_ra @ 2005-10-16T23:56:00

2005-10-15T21:59:18Z

islanders came out of their hiding places and greeted the visitors. This is what Columbus says in his jounal about indigenous peoples: “they are very gentle and do not know what evil is; nor do they kill others, nor steal;and they are without weapons […] I recognized that they are people who would better freed and converted to our holy Faith by love than by force”.
Do powerful always win? why? I want love to win forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mariam_ra @ 2005-10-13T13:37:00

2005-10-12T11:38:11Z

i broke up with him...

hm

2005-10-08T22:44:02Z

it's alrady late..i have so much to do..but i'm tired...i was not productive today...I am lazy...I'm so bad..so bad..I hardly feel the responsibility that i carry towards my perants, my country and my people..i'm so bad..
what do i want? Do i know? I'm just a stupid creature..so naive ..who am I ? what do I want??????
qari qris..qari qris..qari qris..potlebi mihqrian qardaqar...xeta rigs..xeta jars rkalad xris...sada xar? sada xar? sada xar???

:)smile

2005-10-02T21:58:06Z

i feel so happy!!! I feel I'm fallong in love! I had some bier today..but it's not the case...I just wanna say that I am feeling good ...your absence nearby is such a loss for me...but there are still momcents that I am happy...I know that you exist..that you are not in trouble..that you thin about me ..Everynight I send stars for you..toremind me I love you..to remind you I;m here and always will be by your side...
today he brought me some furniture..I'm gonna buy computer tomorrow..his bike is being repaired...we've got a class at 8;45..i guess i must leave...thousands of kisses and millions of joys to you!
mpua!

mariam_ra @ 2005-09-30T19:47:00

2005-09-30T18:24:25Z

i did not know it was september 30th already...time is not passing..it is rushing like a wind in the cold winter day..Susan left home...I could not wave good bye...I caught cold..she left me the flowers..and kindness and just that she always carries like a burden...cause kindness is also hard to carry sometimes..
So many things happened..how many years passed since I was born...and i still don't feel them on my shoulders... i don't want to be serious!neither serious realtionships...I thought I was grown up..I thought I wanted a man next to me...but i guess it was a fake..I just wanna be geniuine me!!!genuine, free and simple..
I miss Georgian mountains...so high..so complex...I wanna go in the village and spend days in the yard..I wannt piece! got tired of emotions..you probably understand...

mariam_ra @ 2005-09-23T22:10:00

2005-09-23T20:32:47Z

everyday .......i talked about virtue today at my class...what is a virtue??? what a vague word...
my roommates went outside...and i hear plam talking to some Bulgarian gyes..homesick..my years are aching..I want to hear my language...so expressive..so sincere...
I am not thinking..I 'm too tired of thinking...my mind is floating ...walking through my memories..."how many things I have learned from you people!" marques wrote those words when he thought he was dying!HOw many things!!! simplicity..modesty..freedfom of will..cheerfulness in all circumstancies...i love you people!!!just keep faith in yourselves ..in love and kindness!!!keep being humans!!!let the reason always guide you! everything's gonna be all right...

mariam_ra @ 2005-09-20T17:26:00

2005-09-20T15:34:59Z

i feel good!!!! i almost did my THE 4!yeahhhhhhhhhhh i can not believe itttttttt!!!!i love life!!!!! even when it sucks!!!!!well..It was Jenna actually who helped me much...i love her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ok ok! i am serious now!!! well..i shouldn't be that happy cause I still have to analize my work! but I am so hungry...well...today Peter's gonna cook!!!and I'm gonna eat! that's cool!!!! i love it! I wanna go home! home sweet home...well...Plumstraat is my home now...actually I never ever had a home...but i haven't felt it! my home is where my parents live and my brother and Tati and Nuzi and Luki...and my home is where the sky is sunny and trees grow themselves...anyway..I love you people!!! I love you!!!!!!!!

mariam_ra @ 2005-09-20T15:36:00

2005-09-20T13:39:25Z

i am so depressed! i can never cope with this fuckin statistics!!! jenna i strying to help me but it doesn;t work! i've got a midterm in a week!!!! but ...i found my THE4 at a lobby...should I hand it to my teacher???i know it's cheating..but it's so tempting....i don't know...I never know...